list of bands to download

akron/family
atlas sound
bon iver
boys noize
caribou
chromatics
city and colour
cold war kids
crystal castles
cut copy
daft punk
death cab
deerhunter
devo
digitalism
espers
explosions in the sky
feist
foals
frightened rabbit
Health
jens lekman
john vanderslice
joy division
kings of convenience
LCD soundsystem
liars
M83
M. Ward
She and HIm
Marissa nadler
Mazzy Star
My Morning Jacket
Mum
Nick Drake
Of Montreal
Okkervil River
Panda Bear
Priscilla Ahn
Ra ra riot
ray lamontagne
shocking pinks
soulwax
tv on the radio
tears for fears
the cure
the strokes
weezer
why?
yeasayer

Little Shop of Priceless Things

Cutest ad ever.

Cry until you can't cry no more

You know, it's funny. I think the ideal is to have a best friend that you can say anything to, and know that everything is in confidence. You want to have someone to share basically anything and be completely open. And what if you have that, and for some unconscious reason you want to fuck that up? I've never been completely open to anyone in my life. Ever. Not my parents. Not my siblings. No one. And that's completely normal to have things to yourself. However, you should be able to tell your friends things, especially when something's bothering you. I just don't like confrontation. But that's how you resolve things and move past issues. Not every friendship or relationship is perfect. If something's bugging you about that person, you should be able to just tell them so. But for me, I have this issue where I have to keep this friendships perfect and not bring up things that are bothering me. I've done that with every friendship since...idk all of them.

Let's see. My first best friend was Sophie back in first grade. Our friendship worked out because we were young and it was based on pure fun. She liked going to the mall, watching movies and having play dates, so that was perfect for me. We were best friends until high school, and we were separated because of classes. I went into honors classes while she was in all regular classes. Isn't that horrible? I should have been able to stay friends, but the convenience wasn't there anymore...and also I started to realized that friendships were more than just based on fun and games. Our outlook on the world and our interests began to differ as well. We were still cordial to each other, but I never again called her to hang out. It was kind of weird. There was this non-verbal understanding that we probably weren't going to be friends in high school, and that wasn't a problem for either of us.

I haven't considered anyone a best friend until college, and now I don't even have that anymore. I've had really good friends in high school, but not best friends. We have common interests, but I could never share any of my secrets or vulnerabilities with them. Not that they wouldn't listen or help me out. I hate feeling vulnerable. I hate burdening people. I was raised to keep shit to myself, and even now it takes a lot out of me to do so. But back to the friend thing. I've been really good at sabotaging friendships. I really don't know why I do it. Maybe I'm not a good friend? I don't know. I thought I was, but with the track record that I have, it doesn't seem like I do. I try to please people too much, and the last person I try to please is myself. And I feel like now I'm starting to deteriorate. I've been saying so much shit without regarding other people's feelings. I thought it would help with relieving all the baggage I have, but it has only added to it. Mainly because that shit wasn't even part of my baggage. I've been alienating people because I've finally realized that I am not happy with myself. I'm not happy with the life I'm leading, but I've fooled a lot of people into thinking I am. I mean, I've fooled myself until now, so that's some pretty good acting. I would like to be truly happy someday, and not just escape happy or fake happy.

Cold Weather

sucks.

Cookies

yay

Margot and the Nuclear So and So's- My Baby

Margot and the Nuclear So & So's - My Baby - A Take Away Show from La Blogotheque on Vimeo.

Mmmm, this is so great.

I'm coming around to it.

"Back in your Head" -Tegan and Sara

I was not a fan of The Con at all, but the second listen around in months has actually enhanced its appeal. Definitely not a top album of theirs, but it's cute. And I would totally want to be their best friend fo lyfe.

Blah! I hate bars now...

The bar that I used to frequent has now become such a BRO bar. What the fuck? Playing T.I.? Really? And Snoop Dogg? Ummm, play some good shit please. And yeah, the mugs are really cheap and the bartender used to be cool, but now he's so lame. Definitely not going there anymore. BANNED. I'm still drunk-ish...but I had eggs with the roommate and going to sleep now. I love the girls downstairs. We need to hang out with them more. They have the most amazing kitty EVAH!

Night!

Ipods are like a good companion

I bought the ipod nano with 16GB on Friday and seriously. Can you love a machine? Something that can't reciprocate your love? It's essentially the only thing I'll ever need. My last one broke, and it was tragic. I had that thing for four years of my life. Fourth generation ipod. It didn't even have color or a cool interface yet. It was so clunky. I LOVED it. It started sketching out two years ago, but I just kept resetting it, and it worked just fine...until this summer when it wouldn't work on my ipod dock. Like a marriage ending.

Dance-off. Found!

The Colbert ReportMon - Thurs 11:30pm / 10:30c

Rain Dance-Off

Colbert at Christmas
Colbert Christmas DVD

Green Screen
Bill O'Reilly Interview

Almost a year after this aired, I still can't get enough of this. Stephen is actually pretty good at dancing. Did you see those moves? Niice. And Rain's pretty hot as well.

No dance-off, but found his K-pop video!

I can't believe I missed that episode. But soo worth it. Where's that frickin dance off?

Why is every guy not like Colbert?

Oh my fucking god. I have to find that dance-off with Rain. RAINNNNNNNNNNNN!

Jeff Buckley- "Lover, you should've come over"

<3 him.

Curse you, Internet!

Ugh. I should have been studying today, but rather I was on Threadless for forever. EH! But my username won't log in. And my webmail is being really obnoxious. Grrr.

Koi Carps are Cool Too
Rock N' Work
Where the Heart is
Surfer's Paradise

Okay, those are the shirts I have to remember to get.

I hate you, Mediacom.